Here we are, 7 months into 2017 and I’m sitting in my office contemplating my life, my future, how far I’ve come and how far I want to go.
It sounds depressing but I promise it isn’t, I’m a very optimistic person! The only thing that’s depressing right now is that I haven’t been able to kill a gnat that’s been flying around my head for the past 3 days. I could just pick up and move. The perks of having a family owned company is that any office is my office. The downside of my current situation is that I don’t want to relocate with all of my books..
Honestly, my life is exactly what I want it to be. I have wonderful friends, a supportive family, I travel, I love my jobs, I qualified for nationals in the fitness world and I’m on my way to becoming a physician. I was never one to seek a love life so I don’t even count that as a category for myself. I’m also working really hard on the spiritual part because this gnat is testing my patience.
Days in the office are pretty casual, for the most part. When I started working at my parents business, I did it to help them with what I could, while pursuing my other career goals. I didn’t think it would be so entertaining, but when “Ron W” applies for a position as an Aluminum Fabricator and his proudest moment is working as a crew member at McDonald’s, I can’t help but to be grateful for my work ethic and my desire to do more with my life.
I also can’t help but question what brought about this sudden career change, because I’m still trying to figure out what manufacturing windows has in common with taking food orders.
If he was here, I wonder if he would answer that question, or if he’d try to play it off like I just did when I asked my brother if “Darian T” who came in for an interview was a good choice, and my brother responded with, “…he’s still here and he heard you”.
I’ll just pretend I said that on purpose to let him know he’s being watched.
Needless to say I don’ think I’ll be calling him back to work for us, sorry Darian.
But hey, if I’m camping out in my office with my gnat until this guy leaves at least I have a lunch that’s pleasing for my taste buds AND my eyes. winning. And obviously I had to document this picturesque layout for my friends and acquaintances**.
Am I exactly where I want it to be right now? Absolutely not. I’m not a physician yet, I still have so much of the world I want to see, I want to continue competing and I want to move, preferably somewhere tropical where it’s acceptable to wear bikinis to the hospital. Maybe that will exist by the time I finish residency..
But I’m getting there, and regardless of how long it takes I will get there one day. So maybe I should give Ron W the benefit of the doubt. He’s trying, he might be reaching a bit, but he’s trying.
If I’ve learned anything during this long road towards becoming a surgeon, it’s that even though some days are so much harder than others, every little step counts. Some days you feel like you accomplished everything on your list and more, and other days you feel like you haven’t moved an inch. But the more you try, the more you move forward, and suddenly you look back and you realize the time passed and you were working as hard as you could and it took you somewhere*. You’re not where you want to be but you’re also not where you started, and I guess you’ll always be somewhere in between until you get to where you want to be.
The point is to keep moving forward every day. Persistence gets you to where you want to be, regardless of how long it takes. I should know, it took me 3 days to kill this gnat, but I did it, and now I’m free. And it was worth the wait.
The road to success is not straight. There is a curb called Failure, a loop called Confusion; speed bumps called Friends; red lights called Enemies; caution lights called Family. You will have flats called jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination; an engine called Perseverance; insurance called Faith, and a driver called spirits,you will make it to a place called success.
I’m so used to running a fast paced lifestyle that sometimes I have to remind myself that things worth having take both effort and time. The journey to an MD is certainly not an easy path, it’s long and difficult and it’ll make you question yourself every step of the way, but I love it. As much as I want to be there this second, I also want to look back on my life and know that I had fun and I was free and I spent time with loved ones and I explored the world and I accomplished everything I have ever wanted to do in my life, along with getting my PhD. I can be patient because I know I’ll make it one day.
Right now, I’m just happy that the highlight of my resume is more than just “served fries”.
*Maybe that somewhere is an aluminum fabricator but maybe it isn’t, but it certainly isn’t a crew member at McDonald’s and I have faith that Ron W will find a fulfilling career, somewhere.
**Courtesy of snapchat.